forever and always.

And i stare at the phone and he still hasn't called And then you feel so low, you can't feel nothing at alland you flashback when he said forever and always. 
oh, and it rains in your bathroom, everything is wrongit rains when you're here, it rains when you're gone. Cause i was there when you said forever and always. 

I should be over you by now. I really should. I though i were, it felt like it. You'll never see this post, i won't even let you see this blog.
I'll never admit to you how it really is, you broke me. You really did. But this song, it reminds me of you. I believe it was a tuesday when you called me your girl for the first time. I remember that the snow fell and that it actually was the first snow that year. I regret i didn't give you another chance when you asked me to. What if i would've been lucky by now. Not crying myself to sleep every night and then putting a smile on at school and around my friends.I cry about you sometimes, i do. And i do miss your arms around me and your lips on my lips. But what is there to do? I know you've moved on, just like i thought i did. You have no idea how confused and strangely happy when you wrote that cute, super long text to me a while ago. Telling me you were missing me and that you thought about me and cried. You said that you were sorry for hurting me. I cried while reading it. But i didn't really know what to say, so i played it cool. How could i be that stupid? 
I remember the first time you told me you loved me. we were in your bed, you looked right into my eyes, kissed me on the lips, "i love you" you whispered and my heart melted. 
"I remember when you said forever and always. You didn't mean it baby.." i don't think you did. i wish i could forget it all, all the memories, all the tears, all of the kisses and all of the romantic moments that made you to my very own. 
after all you've done to me, i guess im not over you. and i guess... i still love you.