send me away with the words of a love songs.

my life is a mess. im sorry i keep writing here. But writing is kind of the thing that keeps me sane. If that makes any sense.
I guess i'd call myself depressed, people around me wouldn't because they dont know. I'm really good at hiding my feelings sometimes. But whenever Im alone i break.
I dont like this feeling. I wish i could just be really happy, you know, happy for real. Not only smiling, but actually being happy.

I heard this song today, its on repeat right now actually. i dont know why, but i like it. The song is called 2 soon and it is by Jon Young. The lyrics goes like this:
"If I die young, bury, bury me in satin 
Lay me down on a, bed of roses 
Sink me in the river, at dawn 
Send me away with the words of a love song" 

it makes me think. but then again what doesn't? 

anyways. "if i die young" there's no "if". i will die young. 

im sorry.... i love you.